Can you meet me halfway?

2011-05-28T23:26:00.002+08:00

Fantastic Four 1 & 2, American Pie 2, Mean Girls 2, Cinderella Story.

Hahahaha, a mundane saturday yet I thought I spent it really really well.

Been wanting to sit down at my laptop for a whole day just to watch movies. Very very peaceful day at home, alone.

It's 23:30 & I haven't had my dinner. But weird, I'm not feeling hungry at all.

Wanna enjoy my night alone a little longer, by doing some housechores. I hope nobody's coming home any time soon!

2011-04-17T23:13:00.002+08:00

I'm a library assistant! And I actually like slacking in there sitting just behind the counter all day long! Shelfing the books are tedious but it passes time.

Then again, I have things to keep me busy during the first week because of the new books.

What if I finished dealing with the new books this week? Then what else is there for me to do?

OHHHH NOOOOOOOOO!

Hi all, I miss munchys.

Alot.

You know me. I like to go back to look at the old photos. Yes, I was scrolling down ferran's photos on facebook. Interested to see his long hair. HAHHAHAHHAA.

Then the memories caught me again. Photos with 6 people inside. Good times had gone bad.

We seldom meet now. But I hope, & I know all of us are still in each other's hearts.

AWWWWWWWWWWWWW fuck you all! HEHEHHEHEHEH

2011-04-08T23:46:00.002+08:00

Me: My papa mama two sisters all get grow dividend! HOW I DON'T HAVE?! :'(

Afal: MY WHOLE FAMILY GET EXCEPT MEEEEE :'(

Sigh we got the same fate. :'(

2011-04-06T22:47:00.000+08:00

I just experience the first prom ever in 20 years of my life! \m/

2011-04-05T00:22:00.003+08:00

I think I'd pretty screwed up my life these days.

I really don't know what exactly I myself want.

2011-04-04T01:09:00.002+08:00

DANGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.

I love bumming at home. But I hate the fact that I worry for money more than me not going out most of the days. Sigh. I wish I could get a job soon. But I'm choosy, I'm lazy, I scared. I wish a job will just drop down from the sky.

Bangs this time is a little better. But still too thickkkkkkkkkk. WHY MY HAIR SHOOOO THICK. SIGH MY LIFE AWAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

2011-04-04T00:23:00.002+08:00

Feels good to be coming back here once is a while. Idk why I can forget about this for months and suddenly coming back to read the archives motivates me to post again. Maybe this motivation will only be for a day or two. I'll see.

I had one of the best times of my life in Cambodia. Till today, I'm still very thankful that I persisted till the day we're flying off. Trust me, my hesitation, regret, and the feeling of imagining what's gonna happen there, these feelings caused me days of insomnia. Glad that I was away from this fast-paced city for 15 days. Holy best!

Still remembered the first day there, first time visiting the first school which we will be conducting P.E lessons with. Just imagine, the bus just arrived at the school, and even before it stops, the kids were already running out from classrooms, playgrounds to crowd around the whole bus. Still sitting on my seat, the crowd of kids I see through the window, I just teared. I have never seen such situations before in real life. The kids were all in their dirty clothings. Their uniforms have many different kinds but they're all wearing the same colour. Their smiles just melt your heart. But these kids are little monsters. When you first see them, they were quiet and shy, and just so cute. But after a few P.E lessons with them, their monster true colours all came out.

Gosh, I miss those days. When my financial status is stable in future, I'll go back again. With a big group of people, to and and play with the kids!

2011-02-06T15:40:00.001+08:00

In the same room, her study table behind mine, we're just back facing each other. (Y)

2011-01-19T15:33:00.001+08:00

Somebody teach me how to use tumblr please. I'm a nooobbbbbbbb. :S

2011-01-08T23:33:00.002+08:00

Who still come to this blog? This is my first after quite a few months!

HA HA HA HA

2010-10-09T00:05:00.002+08:00

As we were walking, we saw this pregnant lady whose tummy is super big already but still wearing normal t-shirt. Imagine you can see her belly below.

Me & moley wow-ed, but for different reasons.

moley: Wah she tomorrow giving birth already, so big!

2010-08-10T16:57:00.003+08:00

I'm hoping to finish this period of attachment as soon as possible, but it's pretty sad to leave the place and the people. Right, memories are meant to be left behind, I know. :/

Now I'm getting on my report which I think it's full of bullshit. Because apparently, 2,000 words is nothing to me. I type a lot of crap to describe a situation. Hahahaha, what if I reach 4,000 words? Waste paper. I have to print them out to submit myself. Grrr. I tell myself to finish my report today, so I can send to mentor and check the report. Actually, how can they fail my report if the report is based on facts and my experiences? That's what they want us to learn right. Sigh.

I have so many things that I want to do, but lazy to do. I love to give myself excuses, so I shall not complain.

Life's great. Not really, with moley in NS now, you'll see me at home really really often. It's not like we always go to fanciful places, not like I always go out and go to those places, we just love to hangout nearby, slack at starbucks or macs to kill some time, together. It's nice, I kinda miss the times I rush to meet you after work. Oh well, I'm sure we'll work things out although first week was already a rough one for us. :/

2010-07-12T01:36:00.002+08:00

I'm positive, waiting for what has to come, to come.

2010-07-09T23:38:00.002+08:00

I stare at my log book.

Look at the blank page - week 15.

Time check, it's week 19 now.

Mind: nothing to write from week 15 to 19.

Guess I will have to bring my log book to work everyday and just write whatever that comes to my head during work.

Boohoooooo.

I thought after PP, it's total freedom. Who knows, here comes another PP-alike. Another 2,000 report to do. This time, more on my own experience, but i experience the same whole thing everyday. How? Guess I have to be nice at work, for nice thing to happen, then learn nice thing.

I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL. :'(

2010-06-17T03:55:00.002+08:00

I'm becoming a crybaby at nights before I sleep. Should stop being so emotional. If you're not serious, I won't put in 100%. & I hate you more than I love you, for what you just said to me.

2010-06-06T15:42:00.002+08:00

Oh, I love my new straight hair. But I hate it when it's not straight after I tie my hair for work. :/

2010-06-06T15:41:00.000+08:00

Most of the times these days, me is very very angry with you. :@

2010-05-23T00:10:00.001+08:00

I thought work will make me eat lesser, then I'll get to slim down at least that little bit.
Who knows, I just keep eating the tidbits we have.
Now I think I put on weight again. :'(

2010-05-12T12:35:00.003+08:00

I have mixed emotions when I'm at work. I get angry with customers, I suddenly shout to make myself feel better, I keep quiet when I'm damn tired.

But I realised I haven't been really laughing out loud since work started. Maybe I did once or twice. It's not that I'm not happy with my colleagues - they're (Y) people. It's more like I forgotten how to laugh our loud. I forgot how I used to sound like when I laugh.

Stop ta-ta-talking 'bout blahblahblah!

Hahahaha, poor me, instead of losing myself, I lose my laughter. -.-

Two months down. (Y)

Three plusplus more months to go. It'll be easy to pass, but I'm afraid I can't stand that loneliness in school.

Then I think my blogger will come to good use!

& There's sooooo many Indian's from India these days.

They are smelly.

They are rude.

They use their middle finger like how we use our index finger.

They are violent.

They are loud & noisy.

They damn kanchiong.

They run instead of walking.

They speak Tamil language to you.

They think S$18 is like S$1,800 to them.

Fuck fuck fuck. They just piss me off with their presence. Somemore they are always in big groups. Gosh, I can become very racist once I leave this job. No, I already am. Don't worry Pawan, I still love you. <3

I want to buy many many many thinggggys.

I wished I had enough money to buy them all. Yes, all of them. Even my pay is not enough.

Formal clothes, when shall I start buying? I scared I grow fatter after 3 months.

BLAH!

& I love my graduated boy so much.

Congratulations love. <3

2010-05-05T23:21:00.002+08:00

I brought back a joke. ;D

TRW: got me crazzeeeeh; says:

*WHERE YOU GO!

Adolf Afzal. says:

*help broter become spiderman

*HEHEHE

TRW: got me crazzeeeeh; says:

*HAR?

*HOW?

Adolf Afzal. says:

*cos my room the door right, wind blow hard den the door slam and lock itself when nobody inside

*den no key

*den got another room exactly beside uh

TRW: got me crazzeeeeh; says:

*homygod don't tell me you climbed from outside

Adolf Afzal. says:

*so my 2nd bro become spiderman lorh, from 1 room go out the window and climb from outside

*MY BROTHER CLIMB

*i hold the harness

*HEHEHEE

Kept me staring at the convo and laughing to myself for quite long.

HAHAHHAHHAHHAH!

2010-04-27T00:44:00.001+08:00

HIHI, I'M STILL ALIVE. ;D

2010-04-12T21:32:00.002+08:00

Life, easy or difficult to pass?

I go through same routine almost everyday during internship period.

But this routine helps to make time pass faster because it's just a week after another.

What keeps me excited at work - eyecandy

Look out here look out there, find good looking people whom I can keep staring at. Nyehehehehehhehehehehe.

I'm supposed to do my weekly log for week 5. Last week was just a day ago.

Anyway, what am I supposed to write under 'Task' when I'm doing same things every single week?Huh my task is to meet many many new customers.

Work drains me out. If my legs and ass will get smaller from all these standings at work, I think I will smile big big at customers everyday man.

2010-04-02T22:41:00.000+08:00

I have nothing to blog about. ;D

2010-03-26T23:48:00.004+08:00

Gosh I am so bored. I lost count of the number of times I blogged to say I am very very very bored.

My life is good. People around me are great. But the life I need to go through, is damn saddening.

Work. I'm totally shag even though I get as many off days per week as many other people wish they could have as well.

Thing is, even though I meet different kinds of people everyday, I still feel frustrated.

It's hard to be nice all the time. Because patience has its limits, while mine is not that tolerating.

I have this feeling I can learn a lot of things from my job scope, but idk how. :/

2010-03-16T00:49:00.003+08:00

Now that 20% of my pay will go to CPF every month, how to get ipod touch like that?

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

tsk

2010-03-14T22:14:00.002+08:00

Come on lah, if y'all want to earn respect from me, start respecting me first.

For whole 20 years of my life. Fuck them all.

I'd rather been strangers than had known them before.

For once can you people just realise how selfish you are that sometimes you are stepping in too much to control my life.

Whatever happened to Human Rights?

2010-03-14T01:29:00.002+08:00

THIS BEAT IS SICK!

Been busy with IEP since Monday. Everyday is the same routine, waking up as early as 6am all. Got to blame myself cos I still sleep at 1 or 2am at night. Boohooo. Tonight shall take the break earlier.

It's been fun with the new people I met.

But I'm really shagged. I wonder when's my off day. Boohoo. I hope soonzxzx.

&I'm going to wear Jurassic Park uniform. Berms, and my new ugly brown shoes which I was forced to buy it. Ewwwwwwwwwwwww.

Then again, I shall not complain so much.

'Cos I have this feeling that if I can complain more, I will get the worse. Nyeehehhehehe.

Anywayzzxzx, I had fun wow-ing at the mascots today!

The most fun, was fantasizing Charlie Chaplin. Oh he's soooooo darn cute then I just want to hug him! Charlie Charlie! Cheekennnn, I keep thinking about him!

HAHHAHAHHAHAH!

Dah dah, fishville loading so slow.

Me wants off me wants off me wants off to sleep sleep sleep.

2010-03-09T18:53:00.002+08:00

Is it true that every staff who's going to work at RWS has to to go through a two-day induction programme?

Hahahhaha. Oh well, the whole programme isn't that bad actually.

The real staff training programme. My first time.

In all, it was pretty fun.

Ah! It's my first time attending programme with people from different ages too! Hahahahha!

The trainers were (Y). These two days I never fall asleep at all know!

Usually during talks, I'll be the first to fall asleep. Hehehe.

& The programme ended with this game. Which I thought was really clever of them to actually think of such a game. Hahaha.

Hey apple!

I'm pretty excited to enter RWS, USS tomorrow. Because idk what I expect when I see what I see there, the attractions described by the trainees there sounds so :O, & idk what I'm supposed to do there too!

Oh ya, my photo on my card is so ugly. I have to carry that ugly face for 6 months.

Why can't they just use my passport size photo? I wasted 8 bucks for it know! -.-

These two days are really tiring. But I still reach home early. (Y)

& I have to wash off my pretty purple nails already! Boohooooo.

I miss Ms. :(

2010-03-03T15:51:00.001+08:00

This cute thing made me smile.

2010-03-02T01:26:00.000+08:00

I'm left with not much patience now since you'd just abused it.

2010-03-02T01:08:00.002+08:00

Lets seeeeeeeeeeee.

I watched finish the last few episodes of L word season 4. Now I'm stuck. refuse to watch it at youtube.
Then, the last episode of Autumn's Concerto which was only half an hour.
Hibernated my com twice. Both are just after I checked finish my webmail. Yeah I on-ed my laptop just to check the mail. And there were none about my IEP. So it's just down to tomorrow. I just wonder if I'll be starting my intern abrubtly. Like informed on Tuesday, starting work on Wed. & Honestly, I'm pretty frustrated by this. I was prepared to be starting intern which supposedly is today. Then now that it's being pushed back, and I still don't know the exact starting date yet, i can't make any plans for next few days. eeeeweeetatingzxzxz.
Received two calls, which made me smile. Thanks to these calls, then I remember I'm still alive. If not, I'm just lying on the bed, dead, not knowing what to do next.
& Lastly, I feel fat. Really really fat.

Okay nowwwwww, I'm on msn waiting stupidly for this person to reply me.

Bye.

2010-03-01T20:36:00.001+08:00

Where my partaye people at?

2010-02-25T02:44:00.001+08:00

12345678.

♥

2010-02-24T02:27:00.001+08:00

I didn't ask to be born stupid.

2010-02-24T00:49:00.002+08:00

This thought suddenly came to my mind.

Have you ever wondered, just when you're troubled over the downs in your life, the people if Haiti are crying for losing their loved ones.

We haven't lose one another. If we were to have problems, we'll work it out. We never know if Singapore's going to have that kinda disaster. But if, IF, we're going to be real apart when that happens, it'll be too late.

We're the world. Everything we have in life now is gift from heaven.

To treasure it or not, we decide.

Will we ever be reminded to think of them when we're down? It's hard, because one becomes selfish when they're met with obstacles.

What I think is, we're all too pampered here. Wayyyyy too pampered.

Im not wishing that I'm one of the unfortunate girl out there crying and crying.

I wished we all look into who & what we are today, what we have.

We all could have a better life, if we want to.

But sometimes, we have to learn it the hard way.

Idk if I'm making any sense. But definitely, I don't really like what I see around me now.

It's all becoming bullshit.

That includes me, because I'm part of them, and we're all in this together.

2010-02-19T02:04:00.005+08:00

A mundane CNY I had.

But it's only the going back AyerBaloi's part.

I think I had a dramatic lunar new year. I fell sick, and got worse on the second day. Can't wait to come back home. Then when I reach home in dear Singapore, hahaha, I felt much much much better and could even gamble with my family. & that is simply, HOMESICK, even though my family's with me all the while.

& my family and I are gambling these few nights just cos my parents had taken leave for a whole week. Mahjong blackjack mahjong. I loveeee mahjong!

I can't run anymore, I think.

I feel weak, lazy, and dizzy. :S

Urgh, I think I'm going to have a boring weekend. :(

2010-02-14T00:22:00.003+08:00

All the while I thought I was wrong about you.

But now, maybe not anymore.

What I think about you is that, you may be a little too full of yourself.

Presentable? Not presentable. At all. Quite a disgrace, quite an awful sight.

Boooooo-yaaaaa.

Anywayyyyyyyzxzxzxz.

Oops I missed the timing.

But stillll,

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY VALLOWELLO!

&&&&, Happy Chinese New Year, Happy Valentine's Day!

What a combination!

HAVE FUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN! ;D

2010-02-06T23:35:00.003+08:00

Try being a girl to understand that girls think totally different from guys.

Try being me, and tell me why am I feeling so sucky.

2010-02-04T02:12:00.003+08:00

Just,

Don't take it to heart about whatever I say/do when I'm not myself.

I don't mean to say/ do anything at this point of time.

I'm sorry if I tried to drag you in thinking I'd be able to make you feel something.

2010-02-04T01:46:00.003+08:00

Don't know why I even bother coming online when I am as tired as you are, and when I can't wait to submit my RJ and go to sleep as well.

I wished I had finished my RJ earlier, and went to sleep right after I reached home.

Who says I didn't go through it means I will never understand?

It's just whether you want to, or not.

Because I don't have to show it all out that I know, I know & I know.

Or rather, idk how to make you feel better.

Fuck I wake up every morning, thinking of skipping school.

I hate this seriously. Pissed off. Complain about school. & At the end of the day, it's still my own fault again.

I don't like it I don't like it I don't like it when I wake up thinking of skipping school and going back to sleep.

I miss those nights, my disciplined days, when I will go offline by 12am, or even not come online at night at all on soccer days.

JTSYM.

Fine. Push the blame away, I'll still have to claim it back in the end.

Rubbish rubbish rubbish.

What has RP done to make me hate school so much?

I still don't understand why they want to put FA UT3 on Saturday when I have my last FA problem on Friday. Freaky Friday.

Emotional much about life at this hour.

Not a good sign. I see life as bullshit, most of the times, at this hour.

I see nothing that is worth living for in this world.

I only see the selfish world, and talk just like how I talk about people without remembering the good things they'd done for me.

Like now ah. But this is why I like to type it out. Because, that's actually not the real me. More like somebody who needs to scream it out loud, type out many things to calm down. Then that's me.

I'm a loner, at this hour.

All I was asking for, is wait for me.

Because I never want to be behind you, being all alone.

2010-02-04T00:28:00.002+08:00

Shucks Shucks Shucks Shucks.

I can't wait for Friday to end.

I cannot stand doing RJ anymore.

Sick of RJ.

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

2010-02-03T00:01:00.002+08:00

HEHEHEHEHEH!

2010-02-02T17:40:00.002+08:00

Relieved.

Mr Lim says the first batch don't have McDonalds. Nyehehehhehe. Okay next, if kena ntuc how? Ala I give up. Whatever company I get, I still have to go and complete the 6 months then I can graduate. Maybe I still have that tiny weeny little luck eh?

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSAAAAA!

2010-02-01T09:52:00.004+08:00

Choo got me missing his voice early in the morning.

I keep hey-ing in my head. -.-

2010-01-31T22:49:00.003+08:00

I bombarded my laptop with cute pop-up stickers.

My two lamo sisters bombarded it with more of them!

GOSH.

I look like some loser gayish little childish bitch with major act cute stickers on my laptop.

HAHAHAHA.

Hoops, not saying anyone here. I feel myself gayish with those stickers.

I received letter from school for the first time.

Cheeeken, they noted the module dates as well. Hahahhaa.

My father: Cannot like that lah. How can like that?

Hahahhahahahhahahahhahhaa. No more skipping school cos it's the last week of school already.

:D:D:D:D

Oh no. I haven't studied anything for Financial Accounting.

Been complaining much about the UT3 dates and timings, but they're not gonna change.

I'm in the losing end anyway. ):

Bullshiatzxzxz school with bullshiatzxzxz UT.

Come holidays come come.

Come CNY come come.

Oh I haven't buy my new year clothes.

Eh? How will this year's CNY be like?

I'm kinda excited for it.

But obviously, my hair's not really that excited. -.-

HAHAHHAHHAHAHHAHHAHAHHAHAHHA

Dah, cookie all day long.

Back to school tomorrow.

Similove. Hehehehehheheh.

2010-01-31T01:47:00.004+08:00

What do you think of me as a friend?

No need to even bother answering, because I'm starting to realise it.

Because I've been neglecting, I received it doubled trippled back.

Gosh, have I changed?

Definitely.

Haven't seen the two queen of Ms for the longest time, where have y'all been?

& that doesn't mean I forgot about you, you, you, and there, you.

I just can't bring myself to do it.

Ferran, I think I should just go climbing with you. But I'm still very lazyyyyyyyyyyy. How?

I really like playing soccer.

I love the girls.

I love trainings.

I love the jokes and laughters and chillin' times.

Hahahahahahahhaa.

Then I realise, did I mange it well after all?

Others can, I can't.

But I always thought it's impossible unless you're just half-hearted.

Har? I don't understand what I'm saying. -.-

A pretty long day today.

Gonna be another one tomorrow.

Cookie cookie all day long!

Miss you Moley.

2010-01-30T01:14:00.002+08:00

Urgh, facebook is pissing me off nowadays.

I so excited to go in cafe world to serve my food, in the end facebook take damn long to load.

TURN OFF.

Idk where which company I'll be posted to for IEP yet.

What if I'm going back to macs? Hell yeah, then that's really the hardest truth in life.

Irritating much, can't they just email and tell me?

Tsk.

2010-01-29T00:57:00.001+08:00

I rant about life, I live my life.

All I want is a happy life.

2010-01-22T10:19:00.003+08:00

back is black.

black is back.

I feel my back aching more and more each morning, each time I stood up from the chair.

Idk if what I've been doing are right or wrong. Idk if we're able to pull this through.
I can't take it now, how am I going to take it if it happens?

No, I'll never be ready for it.
Never on a financial accounting day.

The loser-est self is what I present today.
& I'll never be on the same position as you.
Much more different, much more respected. You know much more about what you want.

& Screw the UT3 schedule.
I can't explain further how screwed I turn my life into.

2010-01-03T16:44:00.005+08:00

GOSH. I miss that crazily messy, gold and long hair I once had.

Made me feel like dying it gold again even though I'm very sure I don't look good with it.

Arghhhhhh!

2009-12-31T20:01:00.002+08:00

Bye twenty-oh-nine.

Hello twenty-ten.

I'm going to welcome the year like how I used to welcome it years ago. Last two years' I was smashing myself in between blacks and whites and many many different colours, brusing through the different kinds of skins. So I shall forget about that this year.

I can still be a good girl if I want to. No plans tonight doesn't mean no life. Doesn't mean a happy occasion you have to spend it outside. Yes once in a lifetime only, but if we're satisfied with the state we're in, why not?

Ala bullshit!
The better me is still being very mean when bitching about people. How sad.

Oh wellllllll, Happy New Year to all!
I am going to start the year loving all of you over again, especially y'all, especially you.
HEHEHEHHEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHHE.

Where'd you gooooooooo?

I missed you sooooooooo.

Seems like it's been foreverrrrrrr.

COME BACK QUICK LEH MOLEY!!!!!

2009-12-25T00:24:00.003+08:00

Two in one.

MERRY X'MAS
&&& then the new year will come soooooonnnnnn!

Hahhahahaa, as usual, I'm spending the christmas in a no-life way. While people enjoying themselves, I'm trying to earn some buckyyyyssss for myself.

Work is as boring as ever. Even on the eve of christmas, the crowd only came in during certain period of time. (N) Then I always got nothing to do. -.-
Nehmind, after today, 5 more days. Goshhhhhhhhhhhh, I'm dying of boredom manzxzxzxzxz.

Horkay forget it. It's a day of joy. I'm happy with this year's christmas especially, because you-know-la. :$
A very different one than the past few years.
Neh heh heh.

Oh wellllllllllll, enjoy your day people. I know I will enjoy mine by facing very attitude customers the whole day. Then again, I hope time past fast, and I go home fast, sleep fast, next day come fast, the faster 29th Dec come then I finally got money. Nyehhehehehhee.

To yall, merry x'mas! :)

2009-12-18T00:08:00.004+08:00

Hello world. :)

I've brought back the better me.

Yes I take it that i'm officially back to the free of worries period. Nyehehehhee.
PP assessment, didn't turn out good, but not that bad as well. But it's already over.
It's really a huge sigh of relieve. SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I am not very confident of passing, it's just 50-50. But miracles do happen right? Yeah.

&Then I have to skip trainings for what I am busying with these few days till almost the end of the holidays.
The christmas faiirrrrrrrrr.
I thought I'd just sleep off this whole holiday, wasn't expecting a call from Anthony.
So yeah, I'm back to the boring yet fun job - contradicting much!
I feel cheated, really. I don't want to be at the fair. Fair is soooooooo boringgggggg.
Nehmind, at least I have a friend whom I know working with me - WEEKIATTTTTTT!

Ya man, I think if he wasn't working, I would have gone mad yesterday night.
Yes, I left my phone in the girl's toilet again. Realised it only when I was already on the bus to mrt station.
Lucky shiatzxzx, the phone is still there on the toilet roll when I went back to look for it. (Y)
It's the second time this kind of thing happen, no third time please. Scared the hell out of me even though it's a priceless 6300 phone. Nyehehehheheheh!

&&&, the world doesn't revolve just around me.
I need to know, as long as I try to accept it, things can turn out very differently.
This applies to everything.
My perangai-ness worsen these few weeks I must say. I didn't realise it, but now I do.
Alaaaa, I'm trying to change k. Forgive me people. :D

Soccer clinic - JORDAN IS DAMN CUTE.
I wish I'll have a son like this know. I dont' mind pampering him like mad because he doesn't shout at me or scold me but just sing sing and sing!
HAHAHHAHHAHA!
Overall, it's very fun. Really.
And I found out that the kids are from the care corner that I went to when I was in primary school! So sweeetzxzxzx lor!

Lastly, should I ever go Rebel again?
Twice. I went there twice. Both of the times I went in for fifteen minutes, came out and never went back again. :/ K, maybe twenty minutes. But stilllllllllllllllllllllllllllll. :S

The night could have been better if I had been a better friend. Yeah.
We'll still have next time right? *innocent face*
HAHAHHAHAHHAHHHAHAHHA!

2009-12-15T00:35:00.004+08:00

It's another time of my life.
Why don't I feel easy when the others had said it was easy to pass?
Gosh I feel like I'm the one in a million, that unlucky one, that sucky one to fail it.
I'm not havign confidence in myself.
If I think I'm going to fail, I will fail.
But I have no reason to be confident that I will pass, because I think my points are still weak.
I cannot take this kind of stress. I don't like this kind of stress.
& I don't like to be alone under this kind of circumstances.

Mumma, save me.
I long for the time when I can say "Mummyyyy, it's overrrrrrr!"
I hope I will cry for joyyyyyyy.
I pray, I practice, I stresss.
I'm weak in this kind of stuffs.
Gosh I should slap myself.

2009-12-13T03:27:00.001+08:00

& This is how hatred develops.

2009-12-07T23:19:00.002+08:00

HAPPY EIGHTEENTH JINLONGGGGGGG!

Love you many many many!

&&&&, I can't wait to party this weekend!

(L)(L)(L)

2009-11-27T23:39:00.004+08:00

DEAR MUNCHYs,

Y'ALL MAKE ME FAT & BROKE.

BOOOOHOOOOOOO (N)!

HAHAHAHHAHHHHAAHHAH!
Eh sial laaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, I realised how fat I am already! The amount of fats surronding my stomach! Then look at my wallet, only got 2bucks cash! \m/ liao lah!
Sad life I have.
Then I realise, 10th week then holidays is it? I thought next week last week already. BOOHOOOO AGAIN. (N)

Eeish, resume, PP assessment. EH IM SCAREDDDDDDDDDDD. :S
Time past fast, PP assessment, then christmas, then new year, then CNY, then internship for six whole months.
BLAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

But I'm still having a good life.
CIUM KAUUUUUUU! \m/

2009-11-27T02:20:00.005+08:00

Gosh idk what the hell I'm doing.
Two people from separate world, totally different. How did they even meet?
Why is it that I can't seem to get what I want but I always give you what you want?
Or is it just me that's being to egoistic and demanding and blahblah that nothing can please me at all?
A man of his words will still deny his words some day.
Well, thanks for always making me feel so miserable anyway.

2009-11-20T23:32:00.002+08:00

Anyway, something great is going to happen soon baby!

2009-11-20T23:30:00.001+08:00

Nobody likes the feeling of losing something.

It just feels different no longer having that something in your life.

Or even if it is just temporary, it still affects me.

Boohooooooooo, all my entertainment's goneeeeeeeeeeee. :/

2009-11-15T13:53:00.002+08:00

THIS POST IS REDUNDANT.

Half of November is gone, christmas is coming soon, another year is going to be over soonzxzxz.
Internship will then come, which is going to cut short my three months of holidays to only two months. :/
Honestly, I'm pretty scared about internship.
Idk where I'll get to be attached to, idk what kinda things I have to do, & the commitments too.
Everything, every single thing that is even possible to think of, I'm scared about it.

After this semester, it's going to be my third year.
Cool shiatzxzx, third year? I feel like as if I'm still in year one know. I just miss the freedom that we all had when we're still year one.
Oh well, we're all another step closer to the real and cruel society as each day passes. What to do?
The hardest truth in life. \m/

Homygod, I like looking at my daily grades now. I don't think I deserve the grades seriously, but those gave me the motivation to go to school and talk and talk in class be in it I understand anything or not. Nyeheheheheheh.

I have a boring Sunday. Boring blog with boring posts. Hard to keep this blog alive anymore these days. I think I'm typing stuffs like what a secondary school kid will type on her blog. Hahahaha.

Did I feel it even before I know it'll happen? But then there has to be a reason for that.
I'm broke I'm broke I'm broke that I find myself so pitiful. FML.
I wonder where my money all goes to. I want to get a job but I don't want to.
This is how contradicting my life is.
Actually, I was wondering if my stand is right or wrong. Sometimes I make myself think too much that I didn't realise I was out of the world for some time. Then when I'm trying to come back, everybody doesn't seem to know me anymore.
I bet I've been changing a lot, I can't stop these changes from changing in me, but I am still who I am.
Things get harder to be tolerated after repeatedly happening for quite a lot of times. Idk how long I am able to let these happen. If I let them come and go, solve them so easily, then why did I even find those as problems right from the start? Idk. I undestand myself very well that I can never ever express myself as good as others can.
Maybe it's because I have a smaller dictionary to do that. But sometimes it can be a good thing that you can't express yourself well too, because I don't really like to be a blunt person. :/

I think I'm jumping all around saying from things to things, thongs to thongs, thungs to thungs. Thing thong thung.
Told you this post is redundant. You'll definitely roll your eyes after reading finish everything.
Bah, School again tomorrow.
UT for consecutive three days. & Financal accounting's one tomorrow. Gosh, I need countless prayers to bless me to at least know how to answer a question. :S

Bye world.

2009-11-09T01:28:00.002+08:00

HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.

I don't want to regret.
I want to get use to it. :/
MAMA says it's not niceeeeeee.
Second day's doesn't look like first day's.
I'm scared for school tomorrow.

& anyway, WEEK 6 HERE I COME.
Soon it'll be 15th week!
HEHEHHEHEHEHE. End end end.
Then it'll be the time I start missing you like. *pingpongpiang*

Dah, blog is getting more and more boring.
Idk why I can't put title for posts. Annoyinggggg.
I'm still scared. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

2009-11-03T21:56:00.001+08:00

If I could, I would.

2009-10-31T00:25:00.003+08:00

TGIF again!
It feels great to be home on a Friday night, having no plans for the next day at the same time.
Thinking that I finally get to sleep for however long I want, it makes me happy. :)
I'm proud of myself.
4 weeks of school, only one day marked -0.5. Quite disciplined so far. HEHEHEHHEEH.
Well I hope I wouldn't skip classes next week just right after I've praised myself. Hahahhaha!

I think, life is all about making decisions. I decide whether I want myself to be happy or not.
Doing good for PP. Got rejected for rework twice so far, but I gues the editing will be over soon.
Been (Y) life these few days. For me, you, and all of us.

Financial accounting is so killer. I feel so sad. Such a loser.
Rj question: What learning obstacles did I face today? How could I overcome them to help my team perform better next time?
Yeah i face alota obstacles, too many too state, so which shall I state?
Point is, I know there's alot but idk what they are. :/

Hahhahahahahahahhahahaahhhaha.
I laughed a lot recently. &, don't really have much perangai minds nowadays. (Y)!

2009-10-26T14:56:00.000+08:00

I think I'll be home early tonight.

:):):)

2009-10-26T00:11:00.006+08:00

Time passes, people change.
People grow up, people leave.
Life is busy, some people gets kicked out of some other people's lives.
Good times hard to come by, difficult times hard to pass.
Thanks iNorlyn♥, for the highly-prided thingy.
Thing is, I don't like to be scolded, even if I'm the first in the listed that had made mistakes.
The more you do it to me, the more I will want to stay away from that place.
& that will cause the noises, the nags, that's why I'm doing all these and that, & that's when my privacy got intruded.
Blahblahblah, adults just can't seem to put themselves in a young adult's shoes when they themselves had been throught the exact times too. If they hadn't been wild before, then too bad, game over for them.
But HALO, I don't want to feel that I can only experience this kinda thingy now but I had totally wasted the time. Yeah, life is full of regrets, but at least we have to try to minimise the number of regrets to make ourselves feel better.

No emotional talk. Life is full of thoughts. I like to think about life, and then reflect if I'm making my my whole life a meaningful one or not.
Actually, I quite like the way I am.
Is it me being sensitive or it's those people out there talking about me?
Eewww I hate it man. Totally not good experience on Friday night, which kept me harping on it again & again. Urgh, I get all sensitive that whenever I see those people, I FEEL HATRED. MUHAHAHHAHAHHAHAH.
Bah, forget it.
I think I like to let out all my nonsense on blogger.
I need to find a secret place for me to let out all my secrets. Then again, can secrets be kept to yourself for your whole life? Do they disappear after being kept for a logn time? Hmm, k these are all not making any sense.
If only thoughts come just like that when I'm doing my PP.
TSK.

HELLO HELLO.
I JUST TYPED A HELL LOT OF RUBBISH.
HAHHAHAHHAHHHAHAHHA!
Eeish I wonder when I'm going to really grow up and not let myself be so affected by such tiny little childish stuffs & comments & actions & whatever.
& I still love the nonsensiac me. Ha! No such word, but whatever!
Gosh, this post is sooooooooooo idk what to say.
I'm going to hide under my blanket already. Paiseh!

&&&&&&, girls chill out was (Y)! Love yall! (K)

2009-10-25T04:29:00.004+08:00

I need a good post to let yall know that the bad things are behind put behind, I moved on and I'm happy with my life.
Yes I am. We all need to be slapped in the face before we enjoy the (Y) life.
Then again, my PP got rejected for rework, and I totally have no mood to do it. :/

East coast park tent day out with soccer girls. HAHAHAHAHAHHAAH. Well, I think this kinda thingy is the time when we all spill out all the beans and be a better team. At least that was what I learnt from today. Yeah I left in the middle of the night, no idea what they're doing now, sleeping or still talking or maybe kicking balls but can't see anything. Muahhahahhah! Uhhuh, I had great fun, ate alot. Bingo was (Y). All in all, I learnt FuckChuckMarry & the truth about papaya juice/milk. HEHEHHEHEHEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHHEHEHEHEH.

Anyway, good things always come to an end.
I hate the feeling of being forgotten, and to know that people regards you as just a rotten apple in their life. Maybe not. Just someone whom they think I can't be trusted. Everybody knows how it feels to be treated like this.

4th-ly, a speechless one.
Okay, that's random.

Nehmind, I miss dad & mum. (L)

2009-10-20T01:01:00.003+08:00

I'm freaking hell 19, and I don't behave like one.
Other 19 years old people, are working for allowances just for themselves to spend.
There are some others, who always have time for all their friends.
& another few, who always know what they want to do, where they want to go.
Fuck my life.
It's damn hard to accept those truth.
No I'm fucking serious with what's the hardest truth in life.
I fucking hell cannot understand what the heck is going wrong.
Yes, I'm very pissed off. With myself? With other people? I don't know.
Talk to me, I give you cold and slow replies, I was staring at the screen and mind was all fucking blank.
Tell me, what is it that you needed most when all you're trying to do is to protect what's between us?

Fuck. Sorry. It all ended with a phone call.

2009-10-19T02:55:00.003+08:00

Where had you gone to?

Bastard, you made me think as if you'll making use of me all along.

No more catch ups, no more nothings.

Yes, I will never take the intiative. So, too bad, & bye bye.

Now that you're gone for good, let me have my fair share of something call good life.

2009-10-17T01:05:00.003+08:00

Two RJs to do on a friday. Fucked up.
Tried to submit one at BK, but internet screwed me up.
Then I just opened another RJ, the question makes me want to cry.
Wtf man.

Fucked up night.
Nothing at all tonight is right.
Let me just say it all out can?
Can, but where? To who?
Told you nothing about tonight is right. I'm always wrong, I'm always the selfish and stubborn one, I'm always the one who makes you feel so bichibababomb.
Tell me, who understands these?

& nothing will make me feel better now. FML.

2009-10-12T23:18:00.003+08:00

Then I ask again, what's the hardest truth in life?

I'm too tired to open my mouth and talk.

That just shows how tired I am.

Am going to sleep, feeling guilty over my stupidity.

Tomorrow will be a better day, really?

yanon, sigyatattttpm?

2009-10-11T02:13:00.005+08:00

Interesting thing is, I've completed my Os, currently study for diploma in poly, and I still can't solve a Primary6 maths problem question. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAH!
Welllllll, do you know how to solve it then?
The way to solve it is so much easier than expected.

Try it people!
Jim bought some chocolates and gave half of it to Ken. Ken bought some sweets and gave half of it to Jim. Jim ate 12 sweets and Ken ate 18 chocolates. The ratio of Jim’s sweets to chocolates became 1:7 and the ratio of Ken’s sweets to chocolates became 1:4. How many sweets did Ken buy?

Ans: 68 sweets
P.S: Most of you will attempt using algebra method, but it's not!

It's something so childish, but doing maths, never fails to excites me most of the times. Hahahaha, I think I got my dad's mathematics genes.
& I really really really think that Primary 5 & 6 maths questions are harder to solve as compared to secondary school's problems. NYEHEHEHHEHEH.

Waking up early is that last thing i would want to do for a sunday. How sad. Lack of sleep, then next day go back to school of 5-days week. NO REST SIALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.
How about a week whereby I'll bathe then sleep immediately after I reach home everyday?
No idea why I've been reaching home late on trainings and matches day. In the past it wasn't a problem for me, but nowwww, idk why. Well, I'll figure it out.

So yeah, Pestasukan tomorrow at SAS. Got to reach woodlands by 745am. Boohoo, and now I'm still awake.

Then again, I had a yummylicious dinner just now at JLong's place! Ms were the chefs of the day! Nyehehehheheheh. Cos I like this kind of meet up sessions, chit chat watch movies with good food (Y). & I guess Watties Supersweet Corns is a must in this kind of session! How I wish one day I can be like mum who can cook so proffessionally, that every dishes makes the people who eat them keep asking for more. Hahahhahahahahhaha. Now I'm starting to miss F&N days. ALAHHHHHHHHH, MEMORIES.

K I shall go and sleep soon already. Bag bag then tidur.

boohoo. school!

2009-10-09T00:58:00.004+08:00

0830

Ala i drag going to school tomorrow! SO EARLYYYYY.

Doing maths also, can someone tell me how to survive?

Drink 10 cans fo red bull. hahahha.

TGIF, buttttttt my friday starts damn early and sad.

BOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO . :/

First day of school. :)

2009-10-06T01:47:00.002+08:00

A different first day of school. Not so awkward because I have 9 people from my previous class in my new class. HBT!
Stomach growls never fail to embarrass me. Seriously stop it sial. Spoil my whole morning. Damn annoying! & it's just damn sad that im damn hungry & i couldn't find anybody to go down and buy food with me.
Yes, I do have my times too. Boohoo.

Still glad over the fact that I had submitted it.
Just pray that KelverChoo won't ask me to edit too much. Hehehe.

I feel like eating western food - chicken cutlet tomorrow. Anyone's up? Yes I know Nicole will be the first, but she'll order different food from the same stall. Hahahahah!

Good day, good night, good people.
Tomorrow'll always be a better day.

PEEPEE submitted!

2009-10-05T00:17:00.002+08:00

Holly holly homygod!

Not so good quality one but finally submitted!

I can finally stop whining since I have to wait for it to be approved.

Deep deep deep down I 100% sure it'll be rejected and I have to edit again.

Then again, no problem lah. We always have to work towards perfection.

I still feel so good.

Just that, back and shoulder is aching.

&. I. Love. All. Of. You.

PEEPEE

2009-09-27T01:35:00.004+08:00

Finally one good thing about PEEPEE that I mention on my blog?
HAHAHHAHAA.
I can say, I'm more than 75% completed. Or not?
But I completed quite a lot today! Cossssss, apart from buying baking ingredients in the late afternoon, I was sitting on the sofa watching tv the moment I wake up. How pok?
Oh well, I feel quite satisfied now. Hoping my report can reach 2,000 words, which is pretty near there already. FULL-OF-SMILES!

Howeverrrrrrrr, I can totally imagine how it'll be like doing the last minute editing for my report becauseeeeeeeeeeeeeee hehehe.

My english is damn broken. B4 during O'levels was total lucky shiaaaat.
My points are everywhere. At least I think so?
I keep thinking I missed out some points, and I forgot where to find them.
I haven't even come out with content page. I'm like using the do-backwards way.
I think my points are pretty weak. Who cares? Advisor cares.
I keep thinking my report will never be up to standard.

Does it sound bad? Not that bad actually. It's just about the edit part. Well, who can't pass through this kind of obstacles in life? I thought I'll totally screw up English during O'levels, but the grade gave me a sense of satisfaction with myself in the end.

HA HA HA. Just another parcel that stop by, it'll part me in likeeeeeeee, two three months? YESSSSSA!

On a happier note, hehehhehe. Actually the above all not that unhappy. Ferran don't laugh at me leh. HAHHAHAHHA! Well, I found back my ipod cable! It was that night, when I took it oout from my room, then walked to my xian's room, dropped it near the rubbish bin unknowingly, & thought I'd placed it on the living room table. How come I didn't notice I lost it immediately? Totally no idea. I realised it only the next night. Searched high high low low for it, instinct tells me that I dropped it in xian's room, but I just couldn't find it. THENNNNNNNNN, just now. NYEHEHEHHEHEH. I finally saw it in xian's room! I swear idk the reason why, but i was super elated. HAHAHHAHH!

Yeah I'm damn bored that I typer out a totaly paragraph about it. Pardon me. Hahahaha. It's been a pretty long time since I last posted a normal post. The previous ones macam emo onlyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

A few days ago I had this lunch with xian, brother, and three cannot-be-named people. Muahahahaha. I still can't believe we did that. Quite funny know. But it turned out pretty well in the end. Three siblings meeting three nice people. Maybe one of them is exceptional. HAHAHHAHAHHAH! Meanasses are bound to exist in this world!

&&&, I kenna pangseh-ed teh whole day sial!

unhappy.

2009-09-22T01:28:00.003+08:00

Who actually really understands where I'm actually coming from?

It's the C-word night again.

Can't smile without you. If only you knew.

quarreling.

2009-09-21T18:44:00.003+08:00

Now I know what people would do when something meant so much to them.
It's not easy to be forgiven after such wrong things that I had done.
And regretting the things that I did is always the last thing I want it to happen in my life.
I should stop expecting things now.

To the annoying you,

Yes you know I'm refering to you.

I am really sorry for ruining you mood.

You're the last person that I ever want to hurt.

But I hope, we'll both still be as strong as before.

You'll need time & i'll give you all the time you need.

Now, I feel myself treasuring your smile and laughter more than usual.

Anything for you. (L)

Don't bother guessing who this is for. It won't do you any good either.

Clubbing at Rebel.

2009-09-21T15:16:00.002+08:00

Rebel-lious

Recalling whatever I can still recall.

& I thank god I reached home safely last night.

HAAHAHHA.

I wonder how some people can do this so often?

Gosh the feeling is terrible.

I'm fine, it's just, I had a dramatic night. & I'm kinda having phobia/trauma or whatever you call it. hahhahahahhaa.

Happy 21st Birthday ChenYan!

2009-09-20T02:14:00.008+08:00

Because y'all know what I nag about most nowadays on my posts, so I shall shut my mouth today. Nyehehehe. It's not nice to see me keep nagging about the same thing too. Want something different? Nah, I give you.

SOMETHING DIFFERENT.

HUAHUAHUA! Now that's interesting. & That's totally my kind of joke. You want to draw money? Give me pen & paper. Easy. NYEHEHHEHEH.

Sis baked all day long today. Then I ate chocolate thingy all day long. People celebrate HariRaya, I celebrate my sister's failed attempts of baking chocolate cakes. I helped in making the nutella something something, and that was the only edible one! Muahahahha! & she baked cookies at the end of the day, again.

Sometimes, can't help but to admit that dad can be really sweet at times. When I nag too much about certain stuffs that I want, he'll get it for me in the end. Oh yeah, I'm a happy kid. I cleared like half of my D drive fiinally. But, good things always come to an end. I didn't realise my word document has problem. Having difficulty doing report now, but it's still do-able, so I'm not nagging much about it.

Posting on the 20th September, not fogetting my dear friend who's so far idk-how-many-kilometres away from me right now. & it's her freedom year!

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY CHENYAN!

I can see you really flying like a swallow now. HAHHHAHA!Eh you must be at somewhere doing HEHEHEH la, not replying my sms know!

Awwwww, whenever I think of you, I look at our graduation pics back then in cchy. Well I only have that album la, but it's better than nothing at all. And thanks to that album, I owe Chenyan so many bowls of ice kachang! HAHA! Yeah she's coming back in Decemeber to eat those bowls of ice kachang.

Eh, I miss our after-school-days eating laksa at some coffee shop. I miss going to Lipmin's place after school to study when O'levels were nearing, & gg to her place and slack downstairs. HEH HEH. We vandalised. *bouncing eyebrows* Would want to go back someday to see if what we wrote were still there. & after Farid uploaded the videos onto facebook, I recall the times we hop to each other's classes after periods, after school, during recess, anytime. Come to think of it, what happened that made us want to hangout with each other so much? During recess, the number one girls clique who are always the last to gather back at the indoor court. Ala! Too many to recall.

Am smiling to myself now. Our innocent teenage days. With Edmund enlisted into NS now, with Chenyan having overseas studies in Australia, I think two is more than enough to prove time is still ticking and not going to stop. Hard to admit that it's time to grow up when we recall our old school days, regrets felt defnitely, but it goes to show I lived it well those past years because it made me want to go back and repeat what I had lived all over again.

Graduation was perfect, except for the song we sang. HAHAHAHAHAHA! O'levels finally over, then wait to get results. & then we're left with really going on our separate ways. I believe that separating classes was already a tough fact to accept, how did we go about living till today then?

Hahahaha. Seen Norlyn's post, and I totally agree. Although we don't talk much now and don't know about each other littlest details in life, you guys are still in my life. My 2005 was the best year in secondary school life, well spent with the people I grew up with all these years. I miss the days of wearing uniforms, do you?

SEC FOURS ON THE DANCE FLOOR! Assembly in hall. It's difficult to forget about those times because we always made noises. We love it.

& I'm sorry for being such a biatch during those days. With my hot temper, my stubbon and mean character, which was totally hard to get along with. Not forgeting the revengeful times. Hahaha, kids. & I'm glad I still managed to have wonderful friends like you people. I miss mugging for O'level days. Writing a report is making me :/. Peepee, why pee so much? -.-

So, idk why I'm still awake now. Hahahaa.

But I just found the reason. :)

Friendly.

2009-09-19T02:13:00.002+08:00

I call her, Friendliest.

HAHAHAHAA.
Went NTUC with sis a while ago.
While queueing to pay at the cashier, i saw this girl sitting under the hanging clothes. She saw me looking at her, so i smiled at her. Who knows, she smiled widely back at me, then waved to me.
Awwwww, melt my heart. Really.
& after that, she was jumping around her mum and me, shouting jiejie!jiejie! Oh, her mum was queueing in front of us.

Rare to see kids like these. Some would just smile back, and they shy to wave.
But look at this super friendly little girl. Sweet ttm.

BAH.

2009-09-18T04:27:00.004+08:00

Because I can't believe what I just did.
Because I can't believe what just happened.
Because I can't believe I am actually what I expect myself not to be.
Because I can't believe the reason.
Because I can't believe that I can't believe.
Because I swear you wouldn't believe that was actually me just now.

It was more than two. Three or Four maybe? All at one go. How to stuff it when it's so many at one go? Even a soft toy has a limit for the amount of cotton that can be stuffed into it.
You can put the blame on me.
Can see, I'm not feeling good tonight.
No I Gotta Feeling song.
It started all with me sitting on sofa since 6.30pm. Watching tv, eat dinner, sms, trying to take nap. All on the sofa.
Slap me please. I seriously don't know what I'm thinking. ~~forfuck~~

Anyway choo, I can be your partner for life in being a PI too. HBT? Want to hire me as assistant though I'm still trying to improve on guessing of short forms.

guilty conscience.

2009-09-18T03:53:00.000+08:00

Now I feel guilty, and I will tell no one why.

LAPTOP.

2009-09-18T02:59:00.003+08:00

To blame it on myself again?

I really got no comments at all this time.

Can cry whole night about it but still won't solve the problem.

Shit shit shit shit.

I hate the holidays. Really. Gosh neither do I want school to start.

Nehmind. I want to quit school.

Coach Feiruz

2009-09-16T00:35:00.001+08:00

I must learn how to talk to my team mates; turn, man on, time/hold.

welcome to malibu, biatch.

2009-09-14T22:46:00.002+08:00

Say no to vulgarities.
Somehow I realised that I don't have a privacy of my own, and I didn't need that in the past.
But now that I need it, people try to intrude into it.
F word to those whom themselves clearly know what they did to me.

It's the fire burning feeling again.
Stop blogger. Switch channel.
Somewhere else where stalkers wouldn't exist.
But I'm hesistating.

Why am I still letting such people affecting the way I behave?
Who wouldn't tell themselves to live for themselves and not for others.
Yeah I did. You people intruded, because the first and last fact is that you're not being very welcomed.

Time to be harsh. Where anything can be sacrificed.
Maybe I'm posting this today and being the same person again tomorrow, but at least I realised and I'm trying.

It's not just about this.
I'm having a foul mood now.
I have a forgetful mind, I even forgot about the true colours of some people.
But that actually meant, they were out of my ife for a period of time.
& that was very much needed.

Well, secretly laughing evil-ly.

try try try by jason mraz

2009-09-13T17:24:00.000+08:00

i know i gave you everything you like
because you still give me butterflies

if we just try try try
just to be ni-ni-nice
then the world would be a better place for you and I
if we just live our lives
putting our differences aside
oh that would be so beautiful to me

well it wouldn't cost a penny but could save so many lonely lives
from teary eyes
if we just try try try
to open up a can of understanding open up your heart

TRY TRY TRY & DO MY PP LA SEH!

090909

2009-09-09T02:11:00.003+08:00

EH MUST BLOG MY BLOG MUST BLOG.

090909!

I confirm cmi to pakat with the time to come blog at 09:09:09am. hahah!

&&&& I GOT MAJOR CRAVINGS FOR FOOD.
FOOD. YES FOOD.
ANY FOOD.
GOSHHHH.
I think it's cos I've been going on hunger strike recently.
I'll usually feel damn full after eating McNugget student meal, upsize somemore.
But today, the impossibleisnothing happened. After dinner, I still want to go pasar malam buy food it.
Ala, I got cravings for food, but idk which to eat.
I see Yau's tweet on twitter I jealous.
Sunday supposed to go makan to celebrate mum's birthday.
In the end, it doesn't even matterrrrr~
No la in the end sister packed food from downstairs instead.

Today's training. HOLY. I have never felt so tired during & after training, since idk when. Probably cos the last few trainings were light ones due to having matches the next day, so my physical take for granted already ah. AHHH I KEEP COMPLAINING. THEN AFTER TRAINING I HAVE TO CARRY SUCH HEAVY BAG HOME. NOW I FEEL MY SHOULDER ACHINGGGGGGGGGG. SAD LIFE. LIFE IS SHORT.

Oh anyway, my com is back to normal again!
Wah I hope it won't suddenly have problem again after few days. I will really -.- and throw it on the floor.
Just kidding. But at times it can really be very annoying. One after another. Tsk.

&Ilismwwssteoaatltiwwitlf.

gosh. shame.

2009-09-06T01:31:00.006+08:00

I already feel bad enough & some people just have to keep saying it to me.

Adding major salt to the major wound.

Seeing me so down makes your life better huh? Find another person la.

Eh stop it sial seriously.

HORRIBLE COMPUTER.

2009-09-06T01:13:00.005+08:00

If only I had pamper my laptop, maybe it wouldn't give me so many problems right.

One problem after another.

Cannot all come together and get it all fixed together ah?

Look look look look at this. My computer screen does not have a desktop. All I have is only this computer folder, for me to open IE, messenger and whatever I want to open. My computer does not even have a task manager.

one black screen and the minimized programmes - my desktop. -.-

But lucky I still can on and off it normally. Just that it seems like handicap. I'm still sad. :/ Power la, & I lazy to go back to school for IT helpdesk. Wait, is IT helpdesk open during the holidays? Wah, if only I have a computer genius at home. :S

mummy's birthday.

2009-09-04T00:35:00.002+08:00

3rd September,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMAMAMAAMAMAMAMA!

bahhhhh. bad day.

2009-09-03T01:37:00.002+08:00

Out of town. Out of city. Out of country. Out of sight. Out of comminucation ways.
Boring. More like I'm lonely.
What happened earlier to me was rather stupid. Out of stubborness. Ended up whining to myself how sad life is. LIFE IS SHORT.

Tired yet don't want to hit the bed.
Until now I still haven't see myself changing. I need to, and I have to.

Anyway, it's been more than two months. & it's the best I ever had. A lifetime down to go.

You won't be lonely, even if the sky is falling down.

good day, bad mood.

2009-08-31T01:52:00.003+08:00

Where got ghost, really cannot make it.

I actually ps-ed Ferran for the movie. Good time spent with family though. HAHA.

Good things do come to an end.

Bad things come when good things end.

But for me, bad things come again even before the previous bad thing is over.

-.-

mad freak.

2009-08-27T00:10:00.001+08:00

MAD FREAK.

Can't stand not messing up my hair.

I have no mood for anything.

HOLIDAYS!

2009-08-26T01:55:00.002+08:00

DAMN TIRED! :@

Hell yeah, all UTs finished! Although last one was horribly done, what's done is already done.
&&&, HOLIDAYS HOLIDAYS HOLIDAYS.
Macam excited only, but totally not. Not anticipating it, not planning anything.
I want money but I don't want to work. Got places I want to go, food I want to eat, things I want to buy. Yeah I complain, but I won't do it. It's just, whether it's really that important to me or not.
Apparently, it can be really important. But I tend to mix up my priorities. This is really bad.
I realise alota stuffs going wrong in my life, but I never bother to change it. I say I want to grow up, be an independent kid. I say, I say I say... But I never even tried.

Bad start again. Going to be officially one month to PP report submission date. Me complain. Me still have to complete it in the end.

Luck makes me emo. Laptop's adaptor spoil, now idk what to do. Send it to service? Where sial. Iris.com leh. Oh wrong link. servicegowhere.com. Interesting leh these websites. Still got hungrygowhere.com. HAHA! trainingtireddowhat.com. HAHHAHAHAHAHHA.

sleepwhattime.com
howtodoPP.com
publishpost.com

FARAH DIYANAH'S BIRTHDAY!

2009-08-23T01:15:00.002+08:00

22nd August,

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY FARAH DIYANAH.

I have a birthday wish for you, which is, MEET UP SOON!

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!

FOOD FOOD FOOD.

2009-08-22T01:24:00.004+08:00

Ya my world is so full of food nowadays. Can totally feel the fats already.

& finally i get to meet Ms, like after two weeks?

AHAHAHAHA.

SAKAE SAKAE SAKAE.

& it was a classic day for me to take classic shots.

MUAHHAHHHAHA!

Ut makes me go googoogaga. Made me feel freaking shag. Whenever I notice my heavy eyebag, I feel so guilty for what I done to myself. BAH. LIFE IS SHORT. tsk.

Anyway, already three down. One more to go on tuesday. & I want to study until like mad so I'll score for that ut.

& I like training today. :)

CREEPY.

2009-08-20T00:44:00.001+08:00

YES IM MAD IM MAD.

boonlay area is getting creepy.

i haven't study for tomorrow's ut.

im mad im mad i mad.

just shoot me on the head.

SHOES KENA STOLEN AGAIN.

2009-08-18T00:55:00.003+08:00

What the hell is the world turning all the people into?

Stealing shoes in the middle of the night?

When it's only just 5 minutes out of sight?

BAH.

Holy mama, I won't ever let it happen again.

Heart pain know. :/

2009-08-17T00:36:00.003+08:00

Last two days of school.

Four days of ut after that.

Holidays for 5 weeks.

But why am I so not looking forward to it?